whaa.

such a long time. almost one year, I should say.

last post was saying goodbye to third year and now, I'm almost (just almost) saying adios to high school. time really flies, I suppose. yeah. haha.

There's this feeling that I could've done more, could've met more people, could've built more relationships, could've read more books, could've gone out more, could've help more. lots of could haves with a month to go. Of course, I'll never be able to cover all of them with so little time left.

so college. Is this choice really going to be life changing?

People say I should choose my passion and go for what I really want.
I don't know what I want, if they're asking for something specific.

It's difficult to assure myself that I'm taking this and not that. I consider myself often unsure, which is bad. I'd rather decide at the last minute when so much pressure is built up. I don't want that to happen, because this is something important to me.

feeling ko ginugulo ko lang yung sarili ko para hindi muna ako makapagdecide fully. kahit alam ko na may decision na ako, I can't say it na that's my decision kasi yung "it's a done deal" feeling na wala nang bawian, it seems so final. :)) pero okay na yun.

at least I made a decision for myself. minsan lang ito.

building bridges. (and walls)

It's not that I did not really have the time to post anything on this site. I was too lazy, I guess. yeah right. haha.

Third year of high school is already finished and here I am, stuck in my house waiting for the most-awaited party ever.

MANG JO'S BUSMATES PARTY!!! we know we love it. :) haha.

Anyway, I'm really glad that the year is finished. Many things have happened, reaching both highs and lows. I'm happy to see myself here-still alive despite all of the things that I have been through.

TENNIS, SAC, MU EPSILON, INSIGHTS, COCC, and especially 3C! Thank you for being a part of my 3rd year life. haha. no need to elaborate further.

It's goodbye to COCC and a warm welcome for ACP. I just can't wait for it start! haha.

I hope I can attend review classes. I really think I'm not prepared at all. Well, no one's really prepared at this point in time. Review books might help, but I'm really nervous of what's going to happen after high school. I guess for me, it's not about the ideal school; it's the ideal course.

I haven't decided on one. Applications are fast approaching. haha. I have many things in mind, but I guess most of them are quota courses. haha. feeler eh.

so, yeah. piano lessons again? I'd like to give a try, but there are no plans yet. I'm still waiting where I'm going to get one.

happy 18th ELEANOR BEATRIZ RAGASA!!! you're not a minor anymore. woohoo! haha.